Anonymous asked: hi :)
Anonymous asked: hi :)
This is day 19 of me really changing my life and I’m excited that it’s almost a habit. Of my 7 goals, I’ve gotten off to a good start on 4, which is much better than any other previous attempt. I bought this book called, “Succeed: How We Can Reach Our Goals” by Heidi Grant Halvorson, Ph.D. and it’s been helping me tremendously with shaping my goals. She uses psychological studies to show how you can improve your chances of accomplishing what you’ve set out to do. After I post this, I’m going to be working on a arts and crafts type thingy so I can display my goals proudly. I’m going to hang it in my room and have it remind me of what I’ve set out to do, why I’m doing it, and how I plan to accomplish it.
I feel really good. I’m cooking more often, I’m losing weight, and I’m feeling more spiritually connected to God. I’m even OK with being single for now. That’s a big deal for me. I’m praying that I can keep this up and finally get on the path to being the person I was meant to be. No more excuses. I plan to seize every opportunity to move forward and be better. For those of you who might be reading, please send up a prayer for me. Even though I know I have what it takes to accomplish my goals, I’m definitely going to need some prayer.
Some of the resources I’ve been using are Noom (a fitness/weight loss app), the book “Succeed: How We Can Reach Our Goals,” and my daily prayer book. I have the resources and the desire. All I need now is to follow through. *sigh* It’s going to be an interesting year.
…and now I feel more accomplished than I ever have on one of my lazy days off. I redid my dry erase calendar, exercised, cooked, washed dishes, and did some good reading. Doesn’t sound like much, but compared to just sleeping, I did a lot.
I’m proud of me and even though I know that some obstacles lie ahead, I believe that I can make the necessary changes.
…I have quite a few things planned for tomorrow…and work is not one of them. I’m glad yesterday is over…..
I’m preparing to move forward in my life, and for whatever reason, I feel like the less I talk about it, the better.
So I guess I’ll keep this hush hush until I know this isn’t just another failed attempt to change my life.
…to be getting on my nerves. People are pushing it already. It won’t ruin my day, it won’t ruin my day, it won’t ruin my day….
So I just spoke with the supervisor and he was super nice about it. Since it’s my first offense, he wasn’t worried. He even shared he sets 2 alarms at home for back up, which isn’t a bad idea…anyways, it went much better and quicker than I expected, so I’m relieved. I’m still feeling lethargic…I think I’m just really disappointed in myself. I cut it close quite a bit when it comes to my life. I’m on time, not early. I’m surviving, but barely making it. I’m only ok in my health…I need to do better.
I have to start today…ugh! I’m so frustrated with myself. I imagine if I had real fans who read this blog, they’d think I was a downer…for whatever reason, my bubbly personality doesn’t translate in text or video. Oh well. This is about me and my life and if I don’t feel bubbly, that’s just how I feel. I think I may be so bubbly in person because I can vent here. Whatever works. *shrug*
I was super late to work—30 minutes. I know the alarm was set, but I changed the alert tone and it just wasn’t enough to jolt me out of my sleepy state. So I get a call at 0706 hours (I’m supposed to be at work for 7) asking if I took vacation or if I was coming in…yep. I overslept and got ready as soon as I could.
Idk what it is about situations like these, but I hate them. I severely dislike being late for work. It makes people think you’re unreliable and possibly lazy. I don’t want to be seen that way, especially since I like this job.
So I arrive to work at 0730 hours and I’m told I need to fill out a leave slip for the 30 minutes I missed and speak with the supervisor. I hate being reprimanded. To be honest, I’m not used to it. I typically follow rules and instructions, so being reprimanded is uncomfortable for me.
I haven’t spoken with the supervisor yet…he tends to ignore me, actually, but I’ve come to accept that that’s just him, I guess. Anyways, I’m not exactly nervous anymore. I know what I did was an accident and that it’s not acceptable. And I can’t predict the future, but I’m going to do my best to assure it doesn’t happen again.
I need to change. ASAP.
liljon102190: au naturale turned 2 today….well not today. The anniversary was on Halloween…to be honest, the only reason I got a tumblr was to follow Frank Ocean, lol. He wasn’t big on tweeting and he mentioned that tumblr was something he used more, so I tried it out and have been on it ever since.
I know my life isn’t all that interesting and that my posts aren’t the most entertaining or thought provoking, but I have a feeling that in a few years, I’m going to read through all of my posts and see the amazing transformation that has taken place. I’ve already changed a lot, and I can’t wait to see how documenting my life will change my life. I love tumblr, and it’s the only social media site I’m using during this hiatus. There’s no one here to ask me questions about statuses…if I’m not having a good day, I can just feel the way I feel without people from high school asking me what’s wrong. When did Facebook become so family oriented? And I hardly used Twitter. That’s something I may never actually get back into, which is fine by me.
I’ve celebrated quite a few things these past weeks….my 23rd birthday, my 3rd nappiversary, the 2 year anniversary of my tumblr….just good things all around. Now I just need to get my life together so I can be super different this time next year.
I’m surprised at how fast life can go by…but I’ll admit that I’m glad that I’m better. It’s proof that people can change and I thank God for that.
My statistics show that for every black person that can swim, there are the same number of WP that can dance.
-“27 Things Educated Black People Like,” Positive Press Agency